Monday, May 1, 2017

stop, watch, and listen.

I haven't written in quite some time. I haven't written for various reasons but I really miss this space where I can lay everything out on the table. So I am back. {for today}

So much has happened since my last post. I saw His faithfulness. I relocated. I dived into the unknown trusting Him completely. And I have seen His hand like never before.

I was living with this fear that I was missing out. Missing out on adventure, missing out on what "normal" life should look like, missing out on what the world sees as successful. I came to a point where I learned that once I gave up all my wants and trust His timing...I was able to really understand that God's way was so much better.

I didn't need a husband to follow His leading.
I didn't need a job with a big paycheck. I didn't even need a big job title.
What I did need is to trust Him even when it was hard.
So I jumped. And I am so glad I did.

Recently, more than ever, I have seen some of His promises come to life. Isaiah 58 is my life scripture and it has come to life these past few months.

This past week I was able to go to NYC and see Jesus work like crazy. I was so blessed to be a little glimpse {and see a little glimpse} of Jesus in NYC.

I like to get things done correctly and efficiently----I can also be a little competitive and fast when getting things done. The Lord gave me the word "intentional" for 2017---and honestly, I had no idea all the ways He was going to teach me to be intentional. He has taught me to slow down. He has taught me to be patient. He has taught me to be okay with interruptions. The Lord has really shown me that sometimes it doesn't matter how quickly or even how perfect something is done---but more than those things is the heart of Jesus---and giving that to other people you encounter.

And He let me experience that this past week.
We were on a mission in a park in the middle of the city. I was simply supervising, not expecting such a God moment.

And then there she came. Her name was Miss Mary. She reminded me of my Prissy. She was confused and lost. As she started to talk, my heart literally felt like it was going to burst.

We got someone to go find where she needed to go. And while we waited, she shared her story. It was broken up into little pieces because she was so confused. But she was hurt, broken, and lost. She thought all hope was lost and she was beyond repair. She said Jesus couldn't help her after all these years---she said as a grandma that she shouldn't be in the position that she was in.

Y'all, the Truth breaks all those barriers and chains. As we began to speak His word above ours and shared HIS heart---she was able to receive little bits and pieces.

It may have been the most God ordained interruption thus far in this year. And I am so grateful.

Jesus was interrupted often. Remember Jesus visiting Zacchaeus' house, there was also the widow at Nain whose son needed healing, and the man who was let down through the ceiling to receive healing. Jesus was never annoyed. He was never aggravated that He was not getting the job done fast. He never thought about what He could be doing instead. Jesus looked at every situation with love and gave the people grace.

That's how I want my life to be. I want to allow the Lord to fill it with situations that need love and grace---and to be joyful facing them.

Keep pursuing Jesus and let Him interrupt things. It's so worth it.

I love that Ephesians 2:10 promises that He already has good things prepared for us to do...we just have to walk in them.
So stop, watch, and listen and you will see Him move.